There’s no room for you on the couch because obviously my legs got there before you did.
I had Canes for the first time yesterday and I resemble my first experience of the food to kisses. I like kisses.
I keep having to remind myself that if you cant fix your self destructive behavior that I cant help you because you wont even help yourself. I refrain from continuing this cycle with you.
Not only isn’t your life worth it but we aren’t either.
And where does that leave us?
done, because I cant sit around and watch you destroy yourself with all those false hopeless wishes to want to change.
You can’t get any lower than you have, you’ve already hit rock bottom.
I’ve already come to accept that I’m not as important as I once thought I was.
And still I love you, but I can’t make you love yourself. I wish I could love you enough for the both of us, but it isn’t possible.
So, this isn’t ‘goodbye’.. ‘Ill see you around’.
Somehow I believe I was put on this planet for a purpose, and I believe it was always meant being yours and loving you each and every day I lived to see tomorrow. Because without you tomorrow shouldn’t exist. Without you nothing good feels as good as it felt when I was with you.
I think my purpose here was in time finding you and wandering throughout life until each and every second brought me to your open arms.
I’m greatful. Greatful, because you being yourself gave me every chance at the opportunity to meet you when I did. The world works in mysterious way, always hitting you with a curve ball, never anything ever working to your exact advantage when you want them to or how you want them too but always realizing that things happen for a reason.
Realizing, the man up stairs put a path in front of me and opticals that lead me where I was when he decided to give me, you.
God gave me, you. He gave me you and said ‘Here, take it’ with only the simplistic instructions to read: ‘handle with care’. And so I have. I suppose people like to admit they think loving someone is easy, when I’m easily admitting its hard. And so I’ve waited years searching for you, going on and accepting that love didnt exist. Not the way I saw it as than at least.
Waiting on the very day I laid my eyes on you. waiting on you to want to be
treated you the way I’ve always wanted someone to treat me. Knowing that I new every single second would’ve been worth repeating any and all risks. The risks showed me what I would’ve missed out on if I hadn’t made the choices I did.
And so for you, I’m absolutely blessed.
